• Reinstalling my System (9/9)

    And please, my Lord, I beg Thee, heal

    The pain in one and all,

    Which I in my confusion caused.

    Please hear this sinner's call.

    I did not mean to harm a soul,

    But to my endless rue,

    So much frustration, anger, hurt

    I managed, still, to do

    O I was wrong s…

    Posted 7 years ago
  • Reinstalling my System (8)

    And one day, I will find the way,

    The strength to tell my spouse,

    And hope to Heaven I won't lose

    My love, my kids, my house,

    My inner peace; that I'll retain

    My home, and if I may,

    I'll ask for their consent to love

    In my own natural way.

    So yes, this …

    Posted 7 years ago
  • Reinstalling my System (7)

    I have so much, so very much

    My frame can't hold it all

    I'll burst if I attempt to keep

    Its mass behind a wall.

    I feel so guilty! I have failed

    To keep the borders free

    Of raging feelings, now and then--

    But then, they lied to me.

    They kept me from the…

    Posted 7 years ago
  • Reinstalling my System (6)

    No more can I control the way

    I love, the quality

    Of my affection, nor the strength--

    Heart listens not to me.

    It's true to some extent that I

    Can choose how to respond

    When feelings grow, until they reach

    To limits, and beyond

    The lines that I consider…

    Posted 7 years ago
  • Reinstalling my System (5)

    But no, my heart just wouldn't die,

    It loved, though I ignored

    Its every message, every urge

    Shut down across the board.

    In spite of my refusal

    To allow my heart to thrive,

    Love was undaunted. Finally,

    I heard: "I am alive!"

    And is it wrong to feel, I a…

    Posted 7 years ago
  • Reinstalling my System (4)

    The progress bar moves slowly still

    Do not unplug your unit,

    I rub my temples wearily

    I know I can't assume it

    Will really work. I doubt the flaw

    Was ever in the OS.

    My heart has always burst with love

    Though I was e'er the slowest

    At finding anyone to …

    Posted 7 years ago
  • Reinstalling my System (3)

    That's all the standard user needs--

    The office suite for home,

    With other users disallowed,

    Not recognized--they use their own,

    And I'll use mine. That's how it's done

    No jail-breaking here!

    No one would dare suggest a change

    The cor'p'rate rules are cl…

    Posted 7 years ago
  • Reinstalling my System (1/9)

    Hi. After storm and stress, I find

    I can't do much right now

    But wag my cursor back and forth

    And watch the progress bar.

    The screen's still in a foreign tongue:

    I have to guess its meaning,

    But hopefully my mind will work

    After repair and cleaning.

    My …

    Posted 7 years ago
  • The Secret, Part 3/3

    And now, like a spirit, your voice rings once more

    How confusing to put them together:

    Your voice, and your words, I could never expect

You would speak this way to me. Can we reconnect?

    With the return of hot, muggy weather

Comes a new conversation. …

    Posted 8 years ago
  • The Secret, Part 2

    You were so sure I'd wronged you, you'd made me believe

    It was surely my fault; but then, how?

All the pages grew soggy and limp with the turning;

    There were so many leads, but they all left me burning,

But the smoke didn't spell out an answer; well, n…

    Posted 8 years ago
  • The Secret, Part 1

    I never understood what I'd done that was wrong,

    Why you exiled me thus from my life.

    Was it something I did? Was it something I said?

    I strapped me to a table, I taped still my head

Underneath the hot lights. I was cut with a knife

But my brain wouldn…

    Posted 8 years ago