Stories tagged “DEPRESSION”

  • Impotency of Social Distance

    “I'm tired.” she said.

    Her words sent a jolt of recognition through me. Not just the words and their flat tone, but the familiar darkness they masked. It was so easy to rely on exhaustion as a crutch because it was so easy to be exhausted these days. Any…

    Posted 1 year ago
  • Fire, After the Ashes

    I hate being a slave to my feelings. I don't know how not to feel something. Shit, feeling something on command isn't something I can do either.

    Try not being angry

    Try not to be sad.

    Stop being depressed.

    Don't like her.

    Don't feel bad for him, h…

    Posted 2 years ago
  • Unsafe Living Conditions

    You know it's damn difficult to focus these days so you don't. You distract yourself with Youtube videos and Netflix, focusing on the new Dave Chappelle special and reruns of Friends or the Office. The outside world can burn without your help. It's beyond…

    Posted 2 years ago
  • On Music

    There are times when music reaches me. I'm open to it, vulnerable to a melody, a drum beat, or even the sound of a single note. It vibrates my exposed self and affects my emotional state. I become a mirror of the string that the guitarist plucks and the e…

    Posted 3 years ago
  • 006

    Story is marked as mature

    Posted 3 years ago
  • Suffer in Silence

    "Did you actually read my email?" I asked, apprehension building a bubble in my chest.

    "No, I haven't had time. It was long."

    My bubble popped. Embarrassment washed over me. What was I thinking? "Oh, well, nevermind."

    "Sure, so about this story..."

    I li…

    Posted 3 years ago
  • Ah, To Go Back

    Often, Penny wished she could go back in time. Quite often.

    She felt like her life had become a bit of a mess.

    She hadn't left the apartment in a few weeks. She hadn't showered in a month. Most of the time she found that she just laid in bed and stared …

    Posted 4 years ago
  • unravel me

    unravel me without delay

    with batting thread and macrame

    my mental health's unmade today

    and rapidly I start to fray

    .

    the stomach acids eat at me

    my eyes lose focus and can’t see

    my skin is sloughing off so free

    cascades of wellness one two three

    .

    today…

    Posted 4 years ago
  • Ukko's Burden

    The thunder boomed and the lightening flashed.

    Unfortunately the Finnish god Ukko's heart just wasn't into it tonight.

    Sure, there were ships on the Baltic sea he could tip over with rogue waves and sheer winds, but why? What was the point?

    He felt los…

    Posted 4 years ago
  • Mind Purge 3

    But I've no strength, no courage! If I must

    Continue living, tread the steeper way,

    Climb crises--impulse might o'erride dread; just

    An instant could decide things either way.

    .

    Posted 4 years ago
  • And This Is Life

    I have suffered brutal betrayals these past months, betrayals no one should have to endure. I have wept and bled and fought and clung to life by any excuse I have been able to find.

    I have endured betrayals of the mind and body. Depression. Anxiety. Para…

    Posted 4 years ago
  • Three Word Prompt: Conglomerate

    It pours down me, eroding away my uniform, my costume

    The entropy brought by weather is my new disguise

    And once again the water images fill me half empty, on the brighter side

    It was not a sustainable image (mirage) anyhow

    .

    But when they see me next…

    Posted 4 years ago
  • Death, Cheated (2)

    Story is marked as mature

    Posted 4 years ago
  • Rapture and Fatigue--Director's Cut

    My heart has just burst

    With a pain most exquisite-

    Jumping on blisters

    ^

    O I am weary!

    My thoughts are eroding fast

    Let them sluice away,

    <

    For they've disguised me.

    Please wash away, scales from eyes,

    And show me myself

    >

    How I've missed the truth

    I sca…

    Posted 4 years ago
  • Eeyore

    I've got a monster in my chest

    A sad one

    Like the evil Eeyore that hides underneath your comforter at night when the room is too hot and your skin is too cold and everything is too much and not enough and you're certain that you're dying inside of your sk…

    Posted 4 years ago
  • doomed

    the sound is doomed

    the air is doomed

    my lungs full up with spores that plumed

    the friends i loved

    the loves I friend

    depart for good my life doth end

    when they are gone

    I'm nothing left

    no confidence i'm done, bereft

    and in my absence

    pain remains

    I pain…

    Posted 5 years ago
  • Why Won't He Listen?

    There's a guy I know. We talk frequently. Every day, in fact. I want to help him, but I just don't know how.

    He feels alone. He can be in a room with a hundred people, all of them wanting to chat with him, and still feel completely isolated.

    He lies to …

    Posted 5 years ago
  • Interim

    The disaster happened. What I feared the most, really occurred. I lost it all, all I wanted to keep, and all the things that scared me the most were right with me to rip me asunder.

    And they left me for dead. No, not for dead, but for finished. Nearly r…

    Posted 5 years ago
  • Back To Myself

    For the first time in a long time, I feel like myself. Of course, this does have its pros and cons.

    On the pro side, I'm actually social. I can actually engage people in conversation. Conversations that I honestly care about. And about anything! Music, h…

    Posted 5 years ago
  • A Chocolate Kind of Day

    It's a chocolate kind of day.

    I went to work, even though I felt physically ill. I'd already been to the restroom 4 times and I was hoping that was it. I had to work, because of the 3 of us in charge, one of us was already gone. I couldn't bail.

    I moved…

    Posted 5 years ago
  • As The Wind Rolls In

    A storm is approaching

    it’s on the horizon

    so cover your eyes now

    and consume your poison

    The harsh winds are blowing

    the clouds are rolling in

    the good Lord turns his back

    as you commit your sins

    Run from your problems

    run so far away

    it makes …

    Posted 6 years ago
  • A Time of Change

    Story is marked as mature

    Posted 7 years ago