Stories tagged “DEPRESSION”
“I'm tired.” she said.
Her words sent a jolt of recognition through me. Not just the words and their flat tone, but the familiar darkness they masked. It was so easy to rely on exhaustion as a crutch because it was so easy to be exhausted these days. Any…Posted 1 year ago
I hate being a slave to my feelings. I don't know how not to feel something. Shit, feeling something on command isn't something I can do either.
Try not being angry
Try not to be sad.
Stop being depressed.
Don't like her.
Don't feel bad for him, h…Posted 2 years ago
You know it's damn difficult to focus these days so you don't. You distract yourself with Youtube videos and Netflix, focusing on the new Dave Chappelle special and reruns of Friends or the Office. The outside world can burn without your help. It's beyond…Posted 2 years ago
There are times when music reaches me. I'm open to it, vulnerable to a melody, a drum beat, or even the sound of a single note. It vibrates my exposed self and affects my emotional state. I become a mirror of the string that the guitarist plucks and the e…Posted 3 years ago
Story is marked as maturePosted 3 years ago
"Did you actually read my email?" I asked, apprehension building a bubble in my chest.
"No, I haven't had time. It was long."
My bubble popped. Embarrassment washed over me. What was I thinking? "Oh, well, nevermind."
"Sure, so about this story..."
I li…Posted 3 years ago
Often, Penny wished she could go back in time. Quite often.
She felt like her life had become a bit of a mess.
She hadn't left the apartment in a few weeks. She hadn't showered in a month. Most of the time she found that she just laid in bed and stared …Posted 4 years ago
unravel me without delay
with batting thread and macrame
my mental health's unmade today
and rapidly I start to fray
the stomach acids eat at me
my eyes lose focus and can’t see
my skin is sloughing off so free
cascades of wellness one two three
today…Posted 4 years ago
The thunder boomed and the lightening flashed.
Unfortunately the Finnish god Ukko's heart just wasn't into it tonight.
Sure, there were ships on the Baltic sea he could tip over with rogue waves and sheer winds, but why? What was the point?
He felt los…Posted 4 years ago
But I've no strength, no courage! If I must
Continue living, tread the steeper way,
Climb crises--impulse might o'erride dread; just
An instant could decide things either way.
.Posted 4 years ago
I have suffered brutal betrayals these past months, betrayals no one should have to endure. I have wept and bled and fought and clung to life by any excuse I have been able to find.
I have endured betrayals of the mind and body. Depression. Anxiety. Para…Posted 4 years ago
It pours down me, eroding away my uniform, my costume
The entropy brought by weather is my new disguise
And once again the water images fill me half empty, on the brighter side
It was not a sustainable image (mirage) anyhow
But when they see me next…Posted 4 years ago
Story is marked as maturePosted 4 years ago
My heart has just burst
With a pain most exquisite-
Jumping on blisters
O I am weary!
My thoughts are eroding fast
Let them sluice away,
For they've disguised me.
Please wash away, scales from eyes,
And show me myself
How I've missed the truth
I sca…Posted 4 years ago
I've got a monster in my chest
A sad one
Like the evil Eeyore that hides underneath your comforter at night when the room is too hot and your skin is too cold and everything is too much and not enough and you're certain that you're dying inside of your sk…Posted 4 years ago
the sound is doomed
the air is doomed
my lungs full up with spores that plumed
the friends i loved
the loves I friend
depart for good my life doth end
when they are gone
I'm nothing left
no confidence i'm done, bereft
and in my absence
I pain…Posted 5 years ago
There's a guy I know. We talk frequently. Every day, in fact. I want to help him, but I just don't know how.
He feels alone. He can be in a room with a hundred people, all of them wanting to chat with him, and still feel completely isolated.
He lies to …Posted 5 years ago
The disaster happened. What I feared the most, really occurred. I lost it all, all I wanted to keep, and all the things that scared me the most were right with me to rip me asunder.
And they left me for dead. No, not for dead, but for finished. Nearly r…Posted 5 years ago
For the first time in a long time, I feel like myself. Of course, this does have its pros and cons.
On the pro side, I'm actually social. I can actually engage people in conversation. Conversations that I honestly care about. And about anything! Music, h…Posted 5 years ago
It's a chocolate kind of day.
I went to work, even though I felt physically ill. I'd already been to the restroom 4 times and I was hoping that was it. I had to work, because of the 3 of us in charge, one of us was already gone. I couldn't bail.
I moved…Posted 5 years ago
A storm is approaching
it’s on the horizon
so cover your eyes now
and consume your poison
The harsh winds are blowing
the clouds are rolling in
the good Lord turns his back
as you commit your sins
Run from your problems
run so far away
it makes …Posted 6 years ago
Story is marked as maturePosted 7 years ago