Alone.

She didn't bother turning the key. Rain pounded on the roof and hood and lashed at the windows. Her body slouched in the leather seat, hair dripping down her nose, her shoulders, completely ignored. She had nowhere to go from here. Yesterday she…

She sat on the bench in the park. It was raining and the clouds were dark. Faint rumbles echoed in the distance from a direction that she couldn't discern. The storm clouds were heavy enough that the sun was but a memory to her and she'd honestly lost tra…

“I'm tired.” she said.

Her words sent a jolt of recognition through me. Not just the words and their flat tone, but the familiar darkness they masked. It was so easy to rely on exhaustion as a crutch because it was so easy to be exhausted these days. Any…

I hate being a slave to my feelings. I don't know how not to feel something. Shit, feeling something on command isn't something I can do either.

Try not being angry

Try not to be sad.

Stop being depressed.

Don't like her.

Don't feel bad for him, h…

You know it's damn difficult to focus these days so you don't. You distract yourself with Youtube videos and Netflix, focusing on the new Dave Chappelle special and reruns of Friends or the Office. The outside world can burn without your help. It's beyond…

There are times when music reaches me. I'm open to it, vulnerable to a melody, a drum beat, or even the sound of a single note. It vibrates my exposed self and affects my emotional state. I become a mirror of the string that the guitarist plucks and the e…

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"Did you actually read my email?" I asked, apprehension building a bubble in my chest.

"No, I haven't had time. It was long."

My bubble popped. Embarrassment washed over me. What was I thinking? "Oh, well, nevermind."

"Sure, so about this story..."

I li…

Often, Penny wished she could go back in time. Quite often.

She felt like her life had become a bit of a mess.

She hadn't left the apartment in a few weeks. She hadn't showered in a month. Most of the time she found that she just laid in bed and stared …

unravel me without delay

with batting thread and macrame

my mental health's unmade today

and rapidly I start to fray

.

the stomach acids eat at me

my eyes lose focus and can’t see

my skin is sloughing off so free

cascades of wellness one two three

.

today…

The thunder boomed and the lightening flashed.

Unfortunately the Finnish god Ukko's heart just wasn't into it tonight.

Sure, there were ships on the Baltic sea he could tip over with rogue waves and sheer winds, but why? What was the point?

He felt los…

But I've no strength, no courage! If I must

Continue living, tread the steeper way,

Climb crises--impulse might o'erride dread; just

An instant could decide things either way.

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I have suffered brutal betrayals these past months, betrayals no one should have to endure. I have wept and bled and fought and clung to life by any excuse I have been able to find.

I have endured betrayals of the mind and body. Depression. Anxiety. Para…

It pours down me, eroding away my uniform, my costume

The entropy brought by weather is my new disguise

And once again the water images fill me half empty, on the brighter side

It was not a sustainable image (mirage) anyhow

.

But when they see me next…

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My heart has just burst

With a pain most exquisite-

Jumping on blisters

^

O I am weary!

My thoughts are eroding fast

Let them sluice away,

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For they've disguised me.

Please wash away, scales from eyes,

And show me myself

>

How I've missed the truth

I sca…

I've got a monster in my chest

A sad one

Like the evil Eeyore that hides underneath your comforter at night when the room is too hot and your skin is too cold and everything is too much and not enough and you're certain that you're dying inside of your sk…

the sound is doomed

the air is doomed

my lungs full up with spores that plumed

the friends i loved

the loves I friend

depart for good my life doth end

when they are gone

I'm nothing left

no confidence i'm done, bereft

and in my absence

pain remains

I pain…

There's a guy I know. We talk frequently. Every day, in fact. I want to help him, but I just don't know how.

He feels alone. He can be in a room with a hundred people, all of them wanting to chat with him, and still feel completely isolated.

He lies to …

The disaster happened. What I feared the most, really occurred. I lost it all, all I wanted to keep, and all the things that scared me the most were right with me to rip me asunder.

And they left me for dead. No, not for dead, but for finished. Nearly r…

For the first time in a long time, I feel like myself. Of course, this does have its pros and cons.

On the pro side, I'm actually social. I can actually engage people in conversation. Conversations that I honestly care about. And about anything! Music, h…

It's a chocolate kind of day.

I went to work, even though I felt physically ill. I'd already been to the restroom 4 times and I was hoping that was it. I had to work, because of the 3 of us in charge, one of us was already gone. I couldn't bail.

I moved…

A storm is approaching

it’s on the horizon

so cover your eyes now

and consume your poison

The harsh winds are blowing

the clouds are rolling in

the good Lord turns his back

as you commit your sins

Run from your problems

run so far away

it makes …

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