I’m just your average 30-something divorcee navigating these waters on her own, sometimes the captain of her vessel - sometimes needing a life preserver.
It had been fourteen days since he left. It was my choice, but, I couldn't help but think that this isn't what I signed up for. It had been a tumultuous twelve years and I knew I had to say goodbye, but I couldn't help but feel like I was ruining my life.
I was beginning to learn how to navigate through life without him telling me what choices to make or belittling me if I made a choice on my own. My insecurity sky-rocketed and sometimes I felt like I was spinning out of control. Most nights I cried, thinking of what it was like in the beginning compared to where it ended. Wondering what he was doing, who he was doing it with, and why I cared so much when I knew he didn't.
I started to hear a voice in my head that was telling me that I am BRAVE and I am STRONG and I WILL get through this. I made the choice right then and there to no longer feel sorry for myself. It's okay to feel sad but it's not okay to live in sadness. It was time to lift the veil and look at the blank canvas that is the rest of my life.
No prequels yet. Why not write one?
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Comments (5 so far!)
Average reader rating 4.00/5
"It's okay to feel sad, but it's not okay to live in sadness."
This strongly reminds me of my own life motto.
"Live carefully, but never live in fear."
- #4156 Posted 2 years ago
- 3 out of 5
Really great first story. A lot of emotion in it. You can feel the emotion you put in coming out of the words as you read it.
- #4158 Posted 2 years ago
- 5 out of 5
That was a nice little read! Seems like someone getting over an abusive relationship. That can't be easy. But thankfully, they have room to get better now.
- #4164 Posted 2 years ago
- 4 out of 5
I apologise for this negative comment, since that's what this is.
I honestly appreciate what you're expressing and where you're coming from, but I just didn't enjoy the writing.
- #4168 Posted 2 years ago
- 3 out of 5
A memoir piece. Sometimes you have to lay it out there in its ugliness to get through to the beauty. I like that this is raw and non-fictional. It's real and honest.
- #4181 Posted 2 years ago
- 5 out of 5
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