Reinstalling my System (6)

No more can I control the way

I love, the quality

Of my affection, nor the strength--

Heart listens not to me.

It's true to some extent that I

Can choose how to respond

When feelings grow, until they reach

To limits, and beyond

The lines that I consider right

Into the regions where

Society forbids me go

They say, "You can't go there."

Do people truly fall in love with

Just one single soul,

And never feel the pangs again?

If so, that's not my role.

I thought, in youth, that was the way

That ev'ry person was,

But I have learned, to my surprise,

That's just the corp'rate buzz,

And maybe many hearts can park

And depart nevermore

But others can love more than one.

If I had known before

That I am such a one at heart,

That I'm not built that way

I would have chosen otherwise

For though I wish to stay

And love my family for aye,

Still, others, too, need care

My heart keeps gushing, all my life,

And it's just wasted here.